hell!what the fish!

why izzit that suddenly all the bfs are SO busy with their own personal committments.blardy.

he promised to spend more time with me this week,since this is my last week before i go to work.and knowing we wouldnt have much time for each other again after i work.he knows that and havent i been putting myself clear time after time?!

lemme put this straight out again...when i work,my time ends at evening.and he forever will have his trainings and elken,to say the least.
sometimes i have to rush to teach tuition.
every time after a day of work,the last thing i would want to do is to walk about and my place is like the end of e East side?

and he said he will try to have more time with me this week!
i am just asking for a free wednesday or thursday and he said he will have to sort things out first.oh what the hell is that?

look..it almost seem like i AM the one who is constantly REQUESTING for some time together.
and DO YOU THINK I JOLLY WELL FANCY A LATE DINNER AND SPEND MONEY TO EAT WITH YOU AFTER MY TUITION,WHEN I CAN JUST GO HOME AND HAVE COOKED FOOD??
and ya,that is MY request too!!

I AM MAD,you know..and is VERY mad at you,JASON!
i dunno how busy you are and can be,but seriously what are you doing all these for?

for me?for us?or for YOU?

look..you may be saving money for my coming bday,but im telling you i DUN GIVE A DAMN about any presents or what...eating restaurants.i can jolly well eat at a normal coffee-joint,and even fork my own money for the movie.I DUN WANT ANYTHING BUT JUST A LITTLE TIME WITH YOU!

seriously to all those boyfriends who are so committed to their work with the thought of wanting the BEST for their girlfriends...i really wonder if that is the real heartfelt thought,OR MAINLY A GLOSSY EXCUSE TO SATISFY YOUR OWN MEN EGOS!!

maybe some gals do care for some materials or so,but all i want is some quality time with you,not some time filled with quality things!

i have no idea but really do you know how much I HATE to just spend some lil hours with you before seeing YOU off to ur trainings.yes..im trying my best to understand you,your committments and give space..but that doesnt give you the right NOT to understand how i feel and find ways to give in to me.

oh~f-uck!
im feeling so damn crossed right now that its better if you find a good way to see me tonight and talk about this one last time,OR better not even come to see me!